In Christ Alone
March 6, 2010
This is a song that is very powerful, this motivates me on my everyday life. It reminds me to return the glory to God. All of my success, happiness and frustrations.. reminds me that God will always be behind me. My source of strength my source of hope… is my King!
In Christ Alone by Brian Littrell
Lyrics
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone
Someday.. When You Lose It
February 19, 2010A wise pastor once told us that you should’nt hold on to something too tight. Because when its gone or if when u lose it, its going to be too painful.. this is a sad fact that I realized. Someday someone or something important to you will walk away.. or will vanish..
Money is seasonal you don’t always have it. Your so overwhelmed spending money with your own pleasure. Special someone, someone makes you so happy that you totally depend your happiness to that person. Do not learn to be dependent on thingsthat you can see or touch.. For when its gone your going to have a hard time picking up the pieces because your all scattered in your memories, that you have to look back and find yourself that once lost.
Be happy not because you are rich on everything. Be happy and depend only to yourself and to the Lord. So when things and person important to you went out your life, you can still stand on your own feet with a smile on you face saying “.. I am okay..”
Letting Go By Gary Valenciano
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I was not supposed to feel that way
I had everything I needed
But nothing ever made me
What I longed to be
The wealth, the name
The lights, the fame
Were everything to me
And then one night
Out of the blue
I heard His name (Jesus)
And so I took that step of faith
And walked into His domain
I believe that’s what He wants
Every heart to do
When hard may seem the task
One step is all He asks of you
Letting go to know the truth
Is not so hard to do
It’s the heart that’s got the will
To open up for Him to fill
And trusting and believing Him
Is all we’ve got to do
It’s just the heart that’s got to move
For Him to show His love that’s been there
Even when we never cared
Take hold of His hand
Let go and you’ll understand
Why be afraid
For God knows what you’re feeling
But even He can’t do a thing
If He sees the heart’s not willing
And so we ask what’s going on
We want what’s right and still do wrong
When hard may seem the task
One step is all He asks of you
I guess by now you’d realize
You can’t be on your own
And all your cares
And all your burdens
Should be cast upon His throne
Letting go, just let go, letting go
Let go and you’ll understand
Just let go and you’ll understand
The Answer
January 10, 2010Today, i went to church because i feel so bothered about the result of the papsmear test. And immediately God answered be through the message I have received.. 1 Peter 5:7 — Cast all your anxiety upon Him because He cares for you..
This made me realize that I should be worrying too much when God know when to catch me even if I dont speak, when God knows how I feel when I dont make any expressions. Pastor Peter Tanchi quoted it is said in Bible too many time…” Be not afraid” .. We just have to put our faith in God that He will never leave us in the battle of life. God is walking with me all the time. So whatever the result maybe I still thank God I am breathing right now.. I am giving this to Him..
Through It All
January 8, 2010You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You
I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
Im carried in everlasting arms
Youll never let me go
Through it all
Hallelujah, hallelujah
– this is the song i keep hearing right now for this is the last song i heard. like others say.. last song syndrome. I am kinda pressured as of this moment about the papsmear result for which I have to wait for 2-4 days in Makati Medical Center. this is my first time to have a test like that. Kinda scares the half of my being because if anything goes wrong I’ll be leaving people who needs me.. dying is what I mean. I am not scared of dying not until I met my Savior. I can definitely say I know where I am going.. The good Lord will never turn His back on me.. I was too scared that I talked to my christian friend.. He said, how come your scared? i thought you know where your going? I told me i know where i am going.. he said then leave it all to HIm, He knows what to do He is our God, He is our Savior. I still told him to pray for me.. after a while, he went back and he said.. there, i already told God about your story 5 minutes ago. and He said He will take care of it. That moment something hit me in the head. Its just like he is talking to someone near him, a friend.. And that’s when I realize, I need to be reminded at all times that I MUST put all my TRUST to the Lord, i should know when i give, and surendered my life to HIM. Amazing, how it feels to be so near HIM. and when you get far, He will still call you and send someone to remind you How Great He Is!… To God Be All the Glory..
The Cross That Saved My Life
December 23, 2009Our death is not sufficient to atone for sin because atonement requires a perfect, spotless sacrifice, offered in just the right way. Jesus, the one perfect God-man, came to offer the pure, complete and everlasting sacrifice to remove, atone, and make eternal payment for our sin.
Have you ever thought why God gave His only Son to save us? Ever since I was a little girl, I always thought that a cross is a symbol of pain and suffering. It is a wonder to me why churches have cross when you see in the movie that cross is being used to hurt someone. I never thought that, that cross will change everything from the moment I heard the word of God.
It is said in 1 Peter 1:18-19, Jesus paid a ransom to save you from the empty life you inherited from your ancestors (Adam and Eve). And the ransom was not mere gold or silver. He paid for you with the precious lifeblood of Christ, the sinless spotless Lamb of God. Jesus, paid our sins as a whole. Sins committed by the human race is all been washed away by the Son of God. Sins has been taken out and paid by Jesus.. God gave His only Son to save the world because he loves us so much.
If you’re a father or a mother, will you be willing to give the life of your only son to wash away the sins of someone don’t even care for you at all? Come to think of it, hard yet God gave it all out. It is a privileged to have God’s love, when you don’t give it back to Him, and when we take it all for granted every time we commit a sin. A pastor once quoted, Christian life is not easy.. it is impossible. But this should be the hindrance to continue living through His word after everything God has done for us. We may not be perfect enough not to commit a sin because of our selfishness. But remember this every time you wake up, God gave His only Son to save you.. How many times did you let Jesus be crucified because of you, because of your sins? Why will He not give you everything? Is it too much to ask to give the love back to our Savior?
The Lord Is My Savior
December 18, 2009I am Ronnalyn Tubig-Aheren, a person who thinks that God is just God who looks after us, loving people, the creator or heaven and earth. For me ever since I was a little girl I never thought that our God can save my life and my family’s life. For a person who’s not really into deep diving of the word of God won’t realize His worth on one’s life.
I was never a proud christian, because I know people might think I am corny, I am boring, and that I am the good girl for which delivers the message that I am not a cool person. Until I accompanied a friend in the mall and she said she has to go because she needs to go to church, it was never my intention to come with her to worship. I just asked her if I could go with her so I have someone with me because I don’t want to go home yet because it’s just noon. Months had passed and I still continue to go to christian church, not mainly because of the freewill but an obligation to God.
It was then the 14th day of February 2009 my Dad passed away and my life is in deep mess, me and my whole family. But I never stopped going to church, thinking that I would find peace that I am looking for. Actually me and my mom. Months passed July of 2009, it was then I heard the voice of God speaking to me. The gospel on that time is the book of John stoning of Mary Magdalene
John 8:1-11 (New International Version)
John 8
1But Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. 2At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” 6They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
9At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11“No one, sir,” she said.
”Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin
God spoke to me that moment and it made me realize that my God is not just a God who takes care, who loved us, who look after us. But my God is understanding, my God is know every pain that we feel, my God is not narrow minded. Made me realize that I’ve been blind all these years of my life. Because I did not let Him into my life. After that service I felt the overwhelming feeling, no room for too much joy. I cannot explain how happy I am, I cannot explain how contented I am with my life. That no matter obstacles I have to face I know that God will hold my hand althrough out the way. It is a privileged to be loved and taken care of God.. A privileged that most of us take for granted. From that day forward I let God use me to continue delivering His words and His love. And now.. I am a committed follower of the Lord our Savior, to God be all the glory..
The Problem Of Science
October 19, 2009An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has
with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .
Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill.
But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor : You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?
(Student did not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don’t they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?
(Student had no answer)
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perceptio
Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical,
Science says your
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes,Faith.. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn’t.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat,
a Little Heat or No Heat.
But we don’t have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can’t go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn’t Darkness?
Student : You’re wrong again, sir.
Darkness is the Absence of Something
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright
But if you have No Light constant
In reality, Darkness isn’t.
If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.
You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, Science can’t even explain a Thought.
It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
Death cannot exist as a Substantive
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolution
(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The Class was in Uproar)
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor’s Brain?
(The Class broke out into Laughter)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s Brain,
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established
Science says that You have No Brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?
(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)
Professor : I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly !
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.
NB:
I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so . . .
You’ll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won’t you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.
That student was Albert Einstein.
A Great Song I Heard Sunday 10/17 Service in CCF
Here is a great song that i heard that Sunday service in CCF for which remind us how great and how good is our God..
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hand
But those trophies could not equal
To the grace by which I stand
In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
Only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
Now I seek no greater honor
Than just to know Him more
And to count my things but losses
To the glory of the Lord
In Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory let it be said of me
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone
My source of strength, my source of hope
Is Christ alone
Logan Sky Angel Cowboy
its amazing how God works, that even a young child could understands how greatful He is.
walking in the water by caroline tanchi
October 8, 2009 my very favorite christian song… this is the only thing i wanna hear everytime i feel like im so lost, down and confuse.. knowing that my Jesus will take care of everything while im in His arms…
A Getaway
October 3, 2009 Last September 17th 2009 a day after my birthday Mom,I and couple of our friends went to an Ilocos Tour. Everything was smooth, I told myself this is a good time to get away from all the worries and stress i have in back home..Went to Batac to see the remains previous president Ferdinand Marcos, to Baluarte, to Vigan, to Bangui Windmill, Kabigan Falls, Blue Lagoon and ViaDuct in Pagudpud. But there’s one spot that caught my attention my favorite spot in Pagudpud is that the view of the sea passing through a cave called Timmangtang Cave. It wasn’t that brilliant but sitting in the shore and hearing the waves and seeing the cave makes me go back to what just happened for this year.. The most painful part of my life is that losing the first man in my life and that is my Dad, also losing a friend (chad my dog). I could recall all those bad and sorrowful time. But no matter how painful life can be there would always be something to look up to. I got married also this year, i know.. Old Filipino tradition ( Sukob ). I got married in less than 40 days after my Dad left us. Because I know he will be happy for me. He’s happy that I am finally getting married.. God is truly greatly He never left my side. He was the One who made me realize that life dont stop in a misery. He took my Dad away from us, but He gave us an assurance that everything will be alright in midst of sorrow. Come to think of it.. i have thought about all of these while sitting down in a rock beside the shore 
I think this is the best part of that vacation being able to reflect and look back. And most of all seeing my mother enjoying every inch of that so called getaway…
Getting By..
June 21, 2009At this point of my life, i feel like i am losing everysingle thing i have. First my father, second my Husband (gone back to US) and third Chad ( my Dog ). 2009 is a very hard year for me i guess. Because i never felt so down in my entire life. Never felt that a part of my heart is missing, hehe can you imagine thats 3 of them. What I’ve learned about being in this situation is that God would never ever give something that you cant bare. Everything has solution, every question has an answer and everything will be fine eventually if you learn to realize the beauty and the advantage of learning how to get by..
Getting Used To..
June 19, 2009I never wanna get used to a person who’s being so nice to me, never try to get it into my mind because i know there’s nothing constant in this world. Nothing’s constant but change, weather change, currency change, ecomic change, even iguana’s color can change but above of it all is that ” people change”.. This is the reason why i never wanna get close to anyone and get use to what they do, because i know eventually it will kill me that i have to accept the fact that things wont be same anymore or can be the same but will change from time to time. That’s what i fear alot even before, that’s why everytime a person gets near me and trying to become a part of my whole being.. I try to turn my back right away. Because i dont wanna feel bad in the end.
Five Stages Of Grief
June 18, 2009Kübler-Ross model
The Kübler-Ross model, commonly known as the five stages of grief, was first introduced by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross in her 1969 book “On Death and Dying”. It describes, in five discrete stages, a process by which people allegedly deal with grief and tragedy, especially when diagnosed with a terminal illness or catastrophic loss. In addition to this, her book brought mainstream awareness to the sensitivity required for better treatment of individuals who are dealing with a fatal disease. [1]
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Stages
1) Denial:
· Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behind after death. [1]
Example - “I feel fine.”; “This can’t be happening, not to me.”
2) Anger:
· Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy. [1]
Example - “Why me? It’s not fair!”; “How can this happen to me?”; “Who is to blame?”
3) Bargaining:
· The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the person is saying, “I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time…” [1]
Example - “Just let me live to see my children graduate.”; “I’ll do anything for a few more years.”; “I will give my life savings if…”
4) Depression:
· During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect themself from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer an individual up that is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed. [1]
Example - “I’m so sad, why bother with anything?”; “I’m going to die . . . What’s the point?”; “I miss my loved one, why go on?”
5) Acceptance:
· This final stage comes with peace and understanding of the death that is approaching. Generally, the person in the fifth stage will want to be left alone. Additionally, feelings and physical pain may be non-existent. This stage has also been described as the end of the dying struggle. [1]
Example - “It’s going to be okay.”; “I can’t fight it, I may as well prepare for it.”
Kübler-Ross originally applied these stages to people suffering from terminal illness, and later to any form of catastrophic personal loss (job, income, freedom). [1] This may also include significant life events such as the death of a loved one, divorce, drug addiction, or an infertility diagnosis. Kübler-Ross also claimed these steps do not necessarily come in the order noted above, nor are all steps experienced by all patients, though she stated a person will always experience at least two. Often, people will experience several stages in a “roller coaster” effect - switching between two or more stages, returning to one or more several times before working through it. [1] Significantly, people experiencing the stages should not force the process. The grief process is highly personal and should not be rushed, nor lengthened, on the basis of an individual’s imposed time frame or opinion. One should merely be aware that the stages will be worked through and the ultimate stage of “Acceptance” will be reached. However, there are individuals that struggle with death until the end. Some psychologists believe that the harder a person fights death, they are more likely to stay in the denial stage. If this is the case, it is possible the ill person will have more difficulty dying in a dignified way. Other psychologists state that not confronting death until the end is adaptive for some people. [1] Those that experience problems working through the stages should consider professional grief counseling or support groups.
Chad now signing off…
June 15, 2009They say dog is man’ bestfriend.. in this case i think i lost one of my bestfriend. For some who dont have a pet dog would never understand me. Chad is my 5 year old golden retriver dog, he passed away yesterday 9am in Animal Clinic near Kapitolyo Pasig.. Last Tuesday June 9 my Mom woke me p, he told me Chad’s not getting up something’s wrong. And then i stoop up i saw him ling on the floor can barely carry himself. I called his name his tail wagged, my brother carried him to the car and we rushed him to the nearest animal clinic open. He was diagnosed my Ehrlichiosis or infected with blood parasite erhlichia. Parasite that weakens the immune system and breaking slowly his kidney. It was heartbreaking that moment, i still have hope because the veterinarians told me there was still hope depending on how he will respond to the treatment. 2 DAYS had passed and still now improvement, he’s not getting up, getting even worst. It was painful for me watch detiriorate like that. I was crying going home everytime i go visit him. Yesterday morning mom and i decided to go to church for a Sunday service to also pray for Chad’s quick recovery. After the service we went to the clinic, i was looking for my baby. I couldnt find him, the vet said tht he died 3 hours ago. I knew i had to let go, but it was so painful. Even much more painful that breaking up with someone you love. Pain that i canot contain, veterinarians told me that they did everything they can to save him. But he just wanted to let go.. I would never forget how much i love him, he’s the only dog i took care of like that. I would never forget the playing, the crazy bath times, the time he stood up, walk and sit beside me whenever he sees me crying. I knew from the start that i had to let go, but i never knew it would be this quick he still got 5 more years. There’s one thing i know for sure, i can take care of anther dog but he can never be replaced inside people heart… my famiy and friends.
Chad Tubig now signing off….
Straighten The Crooked Ones
June 14, 2009Have you ever had someone in your life that can be challenging that what you expect? Someone that you always thought of what if he/ she is not crooked is his life can be better. Someone that your so eager to take advantage of their intelligence, and yet they don use it? Someone you thought can be succesful someday?
i have that someone before trying to change, mold and teach that person, so eager to make hat person lift himself up? And that each passing day you try to show her the difference between right and wrong. Make him realize that life can we that better if he knows how to play his cards, make her realize that each moment he waste in his life doing nothing can mean more than if he had try to go on the other way..
I have tried that for two strong years, Ive tried that.. And to tell you honestly, it wasnt that easy, that i had to give up. 2 years of my life i have dedicated on nagging his and making her realize things, for which he dont even absorb. Yes he will change for just a second just for him to make me see that he is trying not because he wanted to but because he love me enough to please me even or a day. Hey a jerk will always be a jerk, an ass will always be an ass, a bitch will always be a bitch..
BUt it made me realize one thing just now, and i learned it from someone special in my life …You can never change someone because you want him to better, you can never change someone because you want him to excel or see that person in a better position in the near future. Because if you do you will ruin that persons life and make it miserable..You can never turn a man into someone that you build in your dreams. You can never change someone into somebody he has been for his entire life.. Learn to accept and let them change by themselves. Because if he do meaning he did that for himself, and not for you. That way the person realize what’s the meaning of being a better person…
Might take time, can be painful but sure is worth the wait…
Why do you have to leave us? Time is not enough…
Time is one of the things that we often take for granted…
2 months had passed and still the memory is still fresh,the pain of losing my father.Pain of seeing him lying in bed without life, makes me feel i could’ve been there if i knew your about to leave. i could’ve been there if only i knew that i wont wake up seeing you again.. i could’ve sleep beside you in the hospital bed irregardless if i am tired because i just got out from my work. Those things that keeps running through my mind up to know.. and again… i cannot do anything about anymore. All because i cannot turn back time.
I miss my Dad.. Sometimes I ask him looking at his picture, why do you have to leave us? Everything is not enough, the bondings, the endless stories, watching movies all night.. still not enough. We feel that we regret the time that we didnt spend together. The time i didnt spend home, the time he asked me if we could go to the mall eat and have a walk. I still feel that I’ve wasted my life doing nothing at all.
My Dad is not perfect, everyone’s not. He has done alot of bad things while he was still living, but i love him. Not because he’s my Dad.But because i accept him for who he is.i guess the pain, will always be there. But eventually we have to let go for him to let us go as well.
Dad left a space in our hearts that can never be filled, a memory that can never be forgotten and a life that will never be whole.. He would always be the first man in my life..
We miss you so much Dad whereever you are, may you take our love with you, never forget that no one can ever replace you..
The Biggest Event and the Most Important Event Of My Life..
What you said is not enough.. just have a long and happy life with me..
You are my life now..
Life, not that long.. Sometimes you wonder how time flies so fast that you couldn’t even imagine if you have done something important in a year, in a week, in a day or even every second of it.. I feel that most of the time, most of that i wonder why i even exist in this world. Feel like i haven’t done anything important for my family, friends, or for my whole being.. This is why i feel most of the time, even second shouldn’t be a waste, make a life worth living. Reminds me of my Mom told me New Years Eve of year 2008.. “Ron, always remember that Janaury 1, 2008 will never go back anymore, treat every moment as a very special one.. you can never turn back time to correct anything you have done wrong on this date, never let a day pass without learning anything”. People would ask me most of the time, why are you always in a hurry? why do you have to try everything?. My answer most of the time is a smile. 25 years of my life i wouldn’t say its all been a waste, because i know i have touched someone ’s life or even change it.. or even make it miserable. But as time goes by, i realize that i never regret anything i have done in past or anything i had experienced. Instead it made me grew strong, made me think that life is not always being happy but having something to learn from it.. Learn to live life like as if there would be no tomorrow…..
Now I’m going to do that, living my life as if there is no tomorrow.. Making a big turn, leaving everything behind just make everything whole again.. Ready to face a life with someone who I know will love me no matter what. Ready to exchange vows, experience life together.. through thick and thin.. through sickness and in health.. for poorer for richer.. and hoping that death is the only thing that can set us apart. I use to think that this thought doesn’t exist. People settle down and separate, but I was wrong. Somewhere, somehow.. in this small world and billions of people in the planet, you’ll find someone who is really destined for you.. For those people who haven’t find The One, it’s not too hard to determine.. feel it from your heart. What’s funny is i use my brain in every decision that i made in my life. But right that very moment, my brain stopped working and its the heart who commands me to respond. Every time i think of everything and it always put a smile on my face every morning, it never fails.
March 2009.. Month and Year that will change everything..and will never ever be the same again.
Life Is A Cycle
When your born in this world, your parents tried to protect you. Raised you the best they could, gave every single thing you might need. Changing diapers, preparing your milk, bathing you. When you became a todler, someone was ordered to fetch you, someone to look after you, Parents are the one who guides you on doing you homeworks and project even accompany you while on educational trip. Things like that.. but come to think of it, life is very much short where in the end you’ll be one to come with them doing their check ups, preparing their food, worst come to worst you will prepare their milk and even changing their adult diapers.. With this we see how life evolves, we can even call it a cycle if we want.
Life can be that short.. and everyone in not realizing this. So live life the fullest, like as tomorrow will never come. Like my mom told me that the date today will never ever come again. May 9, 2008 will never go back. So as time pass by you’ll realize how much time did we wasted doing nothing? For each passing minute is enough to make a big history in your life. So make each day meaningful, fruitful do everything that will make you happy for as long you step to other persons foot. Try to make everything feel that they are needed, that they are important, that you care for them, that you love them. So if the time comes that you cannot remember anything no more and you are bed ridden with diapers and your children are feeding you. You’ll never have to worry on those times that you still have the youth to spend. Because you did everything that will make others and yourself happy. You will never have to worry how will tell someone that you love them. So never be afraid to let someone know that.