Loving God..

 For the past few weeks, I must say I had a share of quite painful experiences of going in and out of the hospital. Somehow I feel that everything that has happened to me were all connected.

This started out with me asking God to help me stop smoking because I will soon have my medical exam for my visa application and apart from that i dont enjoy smoking 12 sticks a day, for i know that soon this will pay off. So it started first week of the month of August 2010 had a cold, at first I though it was just a simple cold that can be cured in less than 4 days because that’s why I usually have. The cold lasted for almost a week and its getting worst for i am not able to breathe through my nose. So I decided to go to Makati Medical Hospital and the doctor diagnosed me with Acute Sinusitis. Needless to say, I need to stop smoking for smokers has an ability to produce a particular amount of mucous for which can worsen the situation. This did not stop me from smoking still. I must say I am a very hard headed person. After 3 days I’ve experienced a difficulty in breathing and chest pain, I went to the same hospital again and I was diagnosed with GERD (Gastroesophageal reflux disease) to cut the long story short, I’ve been experiencing heart burn. This lead me to stop smoking completely and for which reasons I am no longer allowed to drink as well.. At that moment I asked God why does He need to make me sick for me to stop smoking. It was then that I realize God wants me to know that He loves me. That if I do not stop smoking, I will surely be in more pain.And that He dont want me to experience that anymore. From that moment I know that I am not worthy of any of His love for sometimes I fail to let Him know that I love Him. But still my God is faithfull and loving, He never stop paying attention on me.. This made me realize, you dont need anything from this world… And now, as soon as I get well from another health problem that I have. I will have to pay attention to my soul and my whole being. Looking forward to be baptized, and let God know that I am His servant, I am with Him all the way to finish good in this race.. To God be all the glory..